Grief is not just felt because of the death of a loved one; it is the death of a relationship or an idea. Despite knowing you are making the right decision in life, the ending or the death of what you once had or believed is just as heart-wrenching and piercing as actually losing someone. Why?
You lose pieces of yourself in the process. Pieces break off and float away in the wind or turn to ash in an instant, and everything you thought or knew is wrong or robbed from you.
You become numb, you replay conversations, second-guess your choices, and you grieve the loss of something that was an integral part of yourself.
Tears of disbelief, anger, sadness, and even remorse flood your eyes because it was a part of you, regardless of whether it needed to be stripped away or not. Pruning is not a pleasant experience, and as the old parts of you peel off, detonate like a bomb, or simply disappear, it matters.
The tears, the rage, the quiet moments, or the loud music reverberating in your ears as you dance it out are all part of the process.
The process of becoming you.
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